Oh Sheridan, what ever is the matter?

I am so sorry! I am still neglecting you! Ok, I will try to be better but no promises ok? Ok.

I got a ticket yesterday, like a speeding ticket....I was driving to see ma'boy and I was like, hmm, I want to go fast and see how fast I can go. Sho'nuff, as I come flying over a hill a cop passes me the other way and turns, crapit! Serves me right, I was being deliberately rebellious and I saw the consequences quite fast. That was yesterday when I was also in a nasty mood, very critical and mean (pmsy really) and then I became very clingy and couldn't stand to be alone, hence my going to see the boy and getting a ticket.

Last night I had about 6 different weird dreams, all very distressing, after each of which I woke up and proceeded to talk about it. The one that got me the most and which I have been pondering all day is one where I delivered a baby and the mother wasn't ready to accept it and me being the first person to touch the baby, the baby thought I was its mother. Well it grew to think of me as the mother and I was so happy and I cleaned and dressed her and held her and fed her and everything and then the mom decides she is mature enough to have it back (she was a young mother) after like a few weeks and I am devastated, like I know the baby is better off with her but I am heartbroken and the baby doesn't recognize her as her mother and cries and its so terribly hard for me. Weird huh?

One other was that this prof at school which is such a nasty man decided to quit and I was so excited as now I could take p-chem from a different prof and the whole interviewing process was being undertaken to find a new physical chemist..this was a good one-odd though as it was so real.

Another one I was being molested, how horrid is that? Thankfully I can't recall all of the details now which I could this morning and if I did I wouldn't write them anyways. It was very distressing.

The others I don't recall as well but mann, what a night. Then I kept shivering with like three blankets on and never could get warm although the room was kinda toasty. Menopause? Oh also, I am getting fatter! I had lost 20 pounds and any sort of appetite I had and now I just want to eat chocolate and snickers bars all day long (probably pms-which could add to the weight gain). UH! How depressing is that?! I had someone tell me I didn't look as skinny as I did last time I saw them, she was trying to be nice as she was worried that I was wasting away and that I never ate but still. Wow, so I look fatter, hmmm, nice.

So to sum it up: weird weird freakin weird dreams (more than normal), shivers or too hot, getting fat!!! =-( , gaining appetite back again (poop it is), irritated with innocent bistanders ready to tear their heads off, clingy to boy and lack of desire to be alone (weird for me), and rebelliously speeding. Curithers, you think a 1/4 life crisis?

My love, perhaps you are going to have twins? Or better yet, quintuplets! Either that or you are just going through menopause....