Please don't be alarmed...its only a mood and shall pass

I am feeling very violent presently...I can't find squat I want to eat and I am hungry and I am irritated that what I want to eat is not in my present sphere. I am also very irritated at everything in general. I am feeling horribly mad and irritable and insensative. The violent tendency I talk about is not physical violence but more of a violence that I could really hurt someone verbally as I am cold and feelingless. I suppose I am not feelingless as I am feeling irritation and anger but I am feelingless when it comes to compassion and love presently. I want to yell at a certain person who does not live in this town and tell him what I think of him still as I haven't done it to this date. I have kept composure however so hard it has been. When I think of him I have to dismiss it and when I talk to him or get a message from him I want to curl up in a little ball in tears and scream and pull my hair. I realize how hateful I am still to this one, I seriously feel severe hate. How terrible that is. When will it finally leave me and stop taunting me? I need to move far away but will that really let me forget all that reminds me of him? I think not, everytime I think of physics or physical chemistry or asian culture or anime or computers or overseas traveling or anytime I feel demeaned or feel like someone looks down on me or anytime I think of bisexuals I will be hurt and bombarded with these terrible feelings. They are so sneaky as they creep up on me from time to time when I think they have subsided they come and rear their ugly heads reminding me they have not left me.

I need sleep Curithers.

Yes my love, sleep and drift into a mood dominated by relaxation and calming rain storms. Dwell on the drops falling from God's vast sky onto the soft green leaves of the euycalyptus plant in your window, that is its fantasty, enjoys its dreams and sleep my love, sleep soundly.