Alone in a house with 8000 people

Odd, isn't it, that when someone is upset with you the entire air seems thick with it. I feel as if I am in this house alone, they wanted me to be home for a bit to see them but then they sit in their room doing who knows what and I in mine cleaning out school stuff. I feel very strange, almost and ethereal feeling if that can be felt. I think this also has to do with the fact that I start school again on Monday and I am not looking forward to being disciplined. I want to just be a normal person for a bit longer, no stinking hard classes that eat away at you slowly as you are still alive and just become more and more delirious as the time goes on. I want to settle down, have kids and take care of them. I want to clean my house and think of cool things to do with my kids and I want to think of new recipes and cook. I want to make scavenger hunts for my kids and bake with them and read with them and play games with them. Wow, what motherly older-than-I-am thoughts I am having. Oh by the way, I also want to move from this horrid place far away. Why you ask? I need to break free and its so hard when I am remaining where I am in the old grind of things. I want to go on an adventure, whether it be traveling or just moving somewhere new and settling. I want to explore the new streets and browse through new stores and just see new things. I am not content being here where I am. I want to go and explore.

Curithers, doesn't everyone feel this? How is that people can be satisfied just living in one place all their lives? I am so totally and utterly abhor this idea!

My love, some people have a difficult time thinking about anything outside of what they know. It is comfortable to them and they thrive on comfort. You on the other hand love change and love new things to explore, that is why you are in chemistry. You will never know all there is to know about it and therefore it keeps your interest and you will continue to explore its vast expanses....all these great things that God has created for us to learn and discover.