Blue crabs awaiting their horrible fate......

I love research I have decided. I love to talk about what I have done and I get so excited discussing it and possible future things I may get to do.

I have also decided I hate men that are chauvinist pigs or just plain degrade and demean women. I feel there is so much more to women and they should be seen as people and not just icons of sex. I feel that we are very much equal and there is nothing in man that makes him better than a female. We are equals and some men do possess more strength than some women, that doesn't make the female the lesser of the species. Women can multitask better than men but does that make them better? No. I get the urge to strongly defend woman-kind when I hear men talking about us in such a way. We are not the lesser sex, we are the equal sex. Men would get no where without us and neither would we without them. It takes both to procreate-equally. Of course the woman does have to actually carry the baby but initially it takes equal effort on both sides.

I have been recently hurt emotionally and it really leads one to consider never opening oneself up to anyone again. I mean if you give yourself to someone and then they ignore you and don't seem to appreciate you, what it the point? I mean I still care and love for them but they don't seem to care about me at all....what is the point of me wasting my tears? I dare to wonder why we even love at all....why do we bother with people if they just hurt us? Why not love God and the earth? Neither will deliberately hurt us emotionally (animals tend to be un-deliberate every once in a great while). Why? I do not understand the logic in it all....I feel as if I am wasted and I have no desire to ever deeply love someone. I don't want to come to a time when they decide they don't love me anymore....that is too painful to go through and that pain doesn't seem to even out the time you would have spent with them. Perhaps I am being heartless and selfish but this is my blog and this is what I am thinking.

I need to rest....tests and quizzes in the morning.....

Good night Curithers, sleep well...
Good night my love, peaceful dreams to you and a restful night I wish you......